I think that it is instinctive for us to keep trying, even if we are miserable. I know I did. I had a plan and everything, but something in me kept stopping me. And we never know, tomorrow might be the day that everything changes. I know for me it wasn't over night but with some new meds my world changed. It may not last but for now I'm glad I'm here. I hope there is a solution for you just around the corner.