Very good imagery here. You have a genuine touch for writing

I have genuine sympathy. Later in life major changes are multiplied (lost job at 45, not found new long term one 5 years on) and genuine responsibilities to boot; not making it easier

Although, sometimes, responsibilities, however trepidatious we may be in our ability to handle them or how onerous (raising a child is less the latter) is what gives us the righteous anger to keep going