Hi BP2014,

Here's my take on this, but its just my personal experience and opinion thats all.

Any kind of relationship takes work and commitment. Regardless of circumstances, diagnosis etc.

Throw a MI into the mix, yes, this is work. It take work to keep the commitment and drive of the relationship together.

I've learnt to forgive myself somewhat for episodes. I dunno. I've pretty much come to the realisation that I guess it's what I've got. I didn't ask for them and the reality is they will return like boomerangs I guess.

And I've done some pretty crazy things personally during episodes that would place anyone under duress including my partner. It's pretty stressful for him to understand.

My husband doesn't exactly understand everything about my diagnosis but I guess he doesn't "walk in my shoes" or so to speak so I get that this is pretty hard on him.

Just wondering if you've tried therapy together to specifically work on understanding of your diagnosis? Or even if you're perhaps in therapy to help you work out strategies that may impact less on your family during episodes? [My episodes impact greatly on my family].

Hang in there.

I know how hard it is.