((narcoleptic44)),

You are right, your mother should not have been anyone's mother. It is so unfortunate that "anyone" can be a parent "no education required, not exams to take, just go ahead and do it".

What you experienced was so unfair to you because "no" child should be spanked for crying and needing nurturing, that is what babies do, they cry because that is all they know "how" to get their needs met.

All your mother's behavior towards you is all about her total lack of knowledge and internal anger about that "helplessness from not knowing" too. A lot of this stems from "children are to be seen an not heard" that took away the proper nurturing that ALL children/babies need and deserve as a human child.

I am very sorry, you deserved better.

((Caring Gentle Hugs))
OE