MAY BE TRIGGER:...even thou the full blown depression and constant desire for suicide has gone thanks to the lamictal ,, I still find the constant desire to not wake up, to just end it all except not at my own hand.,I see myself falling and cracking my head open, the truck that takes my car out, the industrial accident,, except I fear the pain,,and the pain is all I dread not the end..These thoughts never leave me......