Lost lonely,
I know the place that you are in right now....because I have been there too. I know that is is lonely and frightening and the last thing you want to do is talk to a therapist about these scary feelings that you do not even want to deal with. But you have to.... it is one of the few ways that this is going to get easier. It sucks and it hurts like hell...but after awhile the talking makes it hurt a little less.
Please take care of yourself sweetie...even though it is probably really hard to do right now.

Stay strong and I am here,
Jessica