When I lost my father....I didn't mourn the loss....sure I cried a bit...but ran from the hurt...drinking....partying...and woke up one day severely depressed.....It's human to cry.....it releases emotions that can build up.....so you have every right to cry...I'm very sorry for your loss.....but mourning,crying, and remembering good times with your lost love one....allows the healing process to happen....