I'm one of those people who thinks it's selfish. Every time I've ever tried I was focused solely on myself and my pain. It was all about me and how I felt and how I just wanted the pain to stop. I remember the third time I tried I was weighing pros and cons. I thought of what it would do to my grandmother who was in the hospital and then thought screw it I won't be here for the fallout so who cares. Needless to say I even screw up suicide so I was here.

If that's not the epitome of selfish then what is?