I've read your posts on two different lupus forums. They are trying to give you the correct information about lupus, but you refuse to hear them and get upset when their factual information doesn't match up with your self-researched and apparently inaccurate information. You have self diagnosed lupus despite multiple doctors telling you that isn't the problem. You keep changing doctors and I suspect eventually you will find one who will give you the diagnosis you want, but it would seem to make more sense to find one specialist and work with them long-term so they can monitor your symptoms over time rather than hopping from doctor to doctor. You seem very fixated on this one diagnosis which probably isn't even the right diagnosis from what I am reading, which may be indicative of your mental health issues. Until you have a firm diagnosis, perhaps you need to stabilize your healthcare in all areas with a set of specialist who can work with you long-term.