Hi. I recently took the courage to tell my parents that I think to need therapy, and I went to the first appointment with a t, though I was very scared at the idea. I didn't like the experience. I was very embarrassed...I expected it to be hard talking about the things I was there for, but I hoped that while I talked with the t it would have become easier. Instead, it didn't. It seemed me to have told her very much and I was making big efforts, but she always asked me for more details, and I was too embarrassed to answer, so I remained silent and then I said that I didn't remember a particular case or that I didn't know how to explain, but sometimes I knew it, I was just too embarrassed. At the end she told me to think if I feel ready to share more in the next appointments, because it's essential for therapy.
Now I'm wondering: since the first appointment didn't go very well and I was so embarrassed, should I change t? Or should I try again with her, since I've already began and maybe next time I'll feel better? The problem is that, since I'm shy about the topic, maybe it would be the same with another t, and I could feel even more discouraged (that is how I already feel, after that appointment). Or could it be that the relationship between us didn't work, so it's better to change?
What do you think that I should do?
Thanks for any feedback.