I'm feeling the same way...it's been building up this month.

It began with a neighbor literally dropping dead and me being the only one at the time to drive his gf to ER where we sat for 3 hours in a tiny, ice cold room. The memory of him hooked up to tubes on every inch of his body has stayed with me.

The next day I had a gallbladder attack (likely from the stress of the day before) that lasted 36 hours so I went back to the ER. Gallstones, no emergency, but I need gallbladder surgery. I have never had surgery nor general anesthesia, so that freaks me out.

While I was still healing from the gallbladder attack, I developed a viral upper respiratory infection that has lasted three weeks. I have just now regained my voice.

What is staring me in the face for this month is:

1. Medicaid cut my food stamps in half with no explanation. When I called, the explanation they gave is totally false so I am now preparing for a "hearing" (by a Medicaid employee) on March 19 and trying to find a legal aid attorney, etc. This is crazy...I have been on food stamps for 10 years with no issues.

2. I was told by my optometrist that my eyes are significantly weaker plus I have floaters and the beginnings of cataracts. I had been anxiously awaiting my new pair of glasses but they were no better than my old ones. After wearing them two weeks and experiencing horrible headaches, I took them back. Both the optometrist and the manager at VisionWorks were baffled, but the optometrist reworked my prescription and sent the glasses back. I went to pick them up last week, again anticipating being able to see clearly again and they are STILL no better, to the point of like I am seeing everything underwater. The VisionWorks manager was very patronizing and rude to the point of covering her mouth and whispering something to a co-worker while rolling her eyes and telling me it's because of plastic frames (that would have nothing to do with the lens), that I have cataracts (no, I have the "beginnings" of one and it would affect how I see out of BOTH my old and new glasses and the old ones are still sharper, then I got the "wear them for two weeks" line. Not one time when they had to be sent back did I get even an "I'm sorry for the inconvenience from the optometrist nor the manager." I just feel like sitting down and crying over this alone.

Due to being on complete disability, my student loans would be forgiven if my psychiatrist had completed the forms correctly a few years ago. He didn't; the forms got sent back, I'm now seeing one of his new P.A.s for only 15 minute appointments because she does not take insurance and I can't afford a half hour plus I am driving two hours round trip to see her. I have to find someone to correctly complete my forms so that is hanging over my head.

I am driving a 15 year old car which broke down on the road Friday, so it is now in the shop and no telling how much that repair will be.

I also have severe health anxiety and have lost a lot of weight this past year so my mind has me convinced I'm dying.

I literally feel like I can't take this anymore. The food stamp hearing is what has me most upset because, without them reversing their wrong decision, this will be in effect for years.

Feel like I'm headed for another breakdown. So sorry you both are feeling the same way.