Nushi,

Big hug to you!!!!

Thank you for your kind words.

Don't give up on yourself. We haven't so far. We are worth it.

Making the effort to write here, please pat yourself or give yourself praise. You did something. It was very hard. You did it! It is a step towards healing.

It is hard to praise yourself and it feels weird but please try it anyway. The feeling might change as you keep doing it. Take very very small steps.

I've sort of stopped with self help and trying to get my motivation to continue. I woke up a while ago and felt very lonely. It was a very hard feeling to shake. Lucky that i had people around me, but i still feel very lonely. I am working through it. I'm going to let the feeling ride through me.

I am here so please write.

Having family abandoning me was very hard. I think i'm finally getting used to it. Sort of. I have good days and bad.

If you need to step back then sometimes you have to. Rest and then when you are ready then keep trying. You don't know it (maybe you do), you have been working on healing yourself.every step counts. Step backs are just rest...then we keep taking small steps forward.

You are healing now. It is hard to see and feel.

I do the same with searching and wanting to see a therapist but my situation now is that i can't. And a part of me don't want to anymore. I am very scared doing this on my own, but is the only choice.

It's okay that you start over again. It is a very hard thing you are doing while depressed, ocd and perfectionism.

Again big hugs to you!!!