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Old Mar 01, 2015, 06:25 PM
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Originally Posted by theres_always_hope View Post
After a traumatizing breakup with a long term love I woke up one morning feeling "different." I couldn't describe or comprehend the feeling, I was just terrified that something wasn't right. A year later, this has become my new "Normal." It started on & off like during stress & at night but would be gone in the morning. Now the feeling never goes away & I'm scared to death it could be permanent. The best way I can describe it is that I'm not fully awake or my life is a dream or a play and life itself isn't real. If that makes any sense. I feel like I'm going crazy to be honest. I have 20/20 vision but I see blurry clouded foggy tunnel vision & sometimes overly sensitive to sun & lights. I constantly feel like I'm floating or swimming on autopilot with no real emotions. I have zero suicidal thoughts or hallucinations but I get random chills of unexplained fear & paranoia especially when showering & going out in public alone. I've never experienced anything traumatizing that I remember but I was diagnosed with anxiety at age 7 & depression at 15. I hate this feeling! I feel trapped in a fog, distant, numb & disconnected with life itself. I tried explaining to several doctors psychiatrists but no real diagnosis was made. Can anyone help me understand what I'm going through? I feel so alone & terrified & like no one could possibly understand. I want to feel human again! I want my life back. I can't leave my apartment or be alone ever, I've lost 2 jobs, the only social interaction I have is with my boyfriend who lives with me but our relationship is strained because I am so distant. Can anyone please help? Thank you for reading.
well we cant tell you what this is only a treatment provider in your location can tell you what this is and how to help you. what I can tell you is that this can be any number of things. if you googled your symptoms you wouldprobably end up with thousands/millions of pages of results from normal to mid life crisis, to just about every mental or physical health problem there is.

examples in me this was called psychosis, MS (multiple Sclerosis) depression, bipolar disorder, and many other things too....the help I recieved for it was many depending upon what was causing it...sometimes medication worked, sometimes adjusting my diet and sleep worked, physical and mental health therapies....

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact a treatment provider in your off line location they will be able to assess what this is with in you and how to best treat it so that you can soon start feeling better.
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Thanks for this!
theres_always_hope