Hi Pinkachu. Your screen name makes me think of the pokemon cards my son used to love so much. Anyway, after reading your post, I agree with sending an e-mail to the counselor. Counseling and therapy could be helpful for you and you are worth it.

It may be hard to reach out for help but it is well worthwhile. Sometimes it is good to have your thoughts and feelings in writing ahead of time before you go to see a counselor. Maybe even copy your post on here. That way, you can make sure you communicate what you need to the therapist.

Don't be too hard on yourself. College is hard. Sometimes it takes longer to finish than you anticipate, but don't give up. Due to stress I dropped out of college many years ago. Now I wish I would have stayed in and just changed my major.

Do what you need to do to get help because you are worth it and your life is worth it.