I can't even look at it. Last night I had insomnia for 5 hours and all I was doing was thinking about how lonely I am and how my anxiety/insecurity brought me here. I thought about the few relationship opportunities I've had and how I blew them because I thought I just wasn't good enough. How can I put another person through all this self doubt and need, Blah,blah,blah. Tossing and turning I thought how nice and calming it would be to smell her hair and skin - not to be. The mattress has become like sleeping on pins and needles, I can't get no peace and it's getting late in the night my friend. I walk around like a zombie in the day - tired and dead. I need to lay down but I can't go in that room - it's where the voices scream at you.