Always you said That is tremendous. I think that is just wonderful. It is not easy to achieve, but I would say you turned the corner knowing clearly what you want. I feel being the main host or the master of ceremonies or just the one who decides is a leap forward. But it is easy to forget that. I have to keep doing yoga or meditating to remember that.

Meds help keep things stable. I think, IMO, from that point onward, it is necessary to work on facing all the elements of oneself and becoming on a friendly basis (not an antagonistic basis) with the different aspects of oneself. It is work but it is a good work that increases our self esteem and natural self control.

I don't think any voices control us unless we let them control us. I think what you are aspiring to is being the whole person you are. That to me is not selfish, especially because to do that we naturally have to develop compassion for ourselves and other people.

One of the things that must diminish is the license by which we do anything without concern for how it might hurt others. IMO to actually be free, we must do no harm. Otherwise it can be self indulgence. There are so many subtleties. Only each of us can assess ourselves.

Maybe it is time to make a sign:

I am the main.