Hi! Jaime here, today I wanted to ask others opinions on their perspective on a few things. So, ever since I was an infant, my father has always been that dark figure in my life. And I'm talking about mental abuse. My father grew up in a traumatic environment his whole life. He witnessed his mothers physical abuse, etc. My point is, I feel like he carried out his anger into his family. I feel as if there is a forever last darkness surrounding him. When I was young he use to spank us for no reason, consistently mentally break down my mother, etc. Well as years went on, and as I got older, I began using his own methods against him. I can honestly say, if my father were to die, I wouldn't be completely heartbroken (not at all suggesting he should die or I want him to). But he's created a mentality for myself towards him that I don't want him in my life, etc. My mother says I am holding a grudge. I just say I have adapted to this irreverence towards him. I mean, how can I not hold a grudge and how can't she hold one? He has done so many bad things to her it became a habit. Please give me your opinion on this subject or advice thanks lovelys!