Please read with happiness and kindness, this is mania speech and sent with love 
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Here is what I would say to myself in my mind if I start to think:
"BIPOLAR HAS ROBBED ME OF A DECENT LIFE"[/COLOR]
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I REFUSE to believe that Biplar has "ROBBED" me of my life.
I WILL NOT bow down to you.
I am not your submissive. I don't play that game.
You think you've won?
Stuff you.
You haven't won.
Yes. You have beat me down.
Yes. You have stuffed up a lot of things for me.
Yes. There have been changes in the course of my life that when I was 18 thinking ahead and wondering is this the path I would have been on well gee I didn't know it would turn out like this you stupid MI.
You have stuffed around with my career. Who would have thought? 4 years of studying at university? 14 years of teaching and now currently not able to teach?
A heck of a lot of strain on my marriage.
Wow I never knew any of this existed.
I was read fairy tale happy endings in Fairy Tale books as a child.
Those books lied.
They don't speak the truth.
They're pretty stupid really.
They need to be rewritten.
Stuff you Bipolar you can stuff off.
You will not beat me on this.
You think you've won?
WATCH ME!
Here's my Fairy Tale that nobody read to me when I was a child.
I shall rewrite the novel. Go to hell Bipolar. I know how this Fairy Tale ends.
I am rewriting the chapter called MY LIFE. THIS IS MY BOOK. THIS IS MY STORY TO TELL. YOU WILL NOT HAVE THE LAST SAY. YOU WILL NOT GET TO CHOOSE HOW MY FUTURE DIRECTION FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE IS DETERMINED.
There is no blank page before me.
Bugger off.
I am writing.
You can't "ROB" me.
If you ROB me it means you stole something from me.
You're not STEALING MY LIFE.
I AM CHOOSING HOW THIS WILL END.
So you THINK Bipolar that I will never work again? This is how it ends in your fairy tale does it? *BAM* Wrong answer Bipolar. Guess what. When I am stable I can and I will get out there and I WILL go out and get a job. Consider that a THREAT Bipolar. I'm not scared of you. You rob me of NOTHING.
Do you think you are allowed to continue to tamper around with my relationship with my husband? Did you? Forget it. I'm writing this ending for you. Here. Watch. We will get through this. How DARE you make us reach the point where we love one another so much but we feel "stuck". We are not stuck. Go away Bipolar. We will work through this. We will both go for professional counselling so that I can understand what HE goes through on a daily basis living with me. I don't know what it's like. I mean I get a clue when he suddenly loses the plot but he loses the plot because he doesn't know what to do with YOU. You suck Bipolar. You suck. I win. Because we can and will work through this.
Sorry for you Bipolar.
You lose.
I win.
CHECKMATE?
Bugger off.
I write my life.
You stole me of nothing.
Go jump off your high horse.
YOU ARE NOT THE KING OF THE CASTLE IN THIS FAIRY TALE.
GUESS WHAT? I have a suprise for you Bipolar. You have been Demoted. My life has now become governed by the Queen Human ME. Get over yourself.
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[COLOR="rgb(255, 0, 255)"]Sent with love and happiness - I refuse to give in to this MI [/COLOR]