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****POSSIBLE TRIGGER*******
I wouldn't suspect this to make a heck of a lot of sense
The angry man is yelling. I think I've figured it out. He doesn't want me to sleep. He is pretty harmless but somewhat frightning too when I am manic. But he is just sitting and waiting. Waiting like a waiting duck. Because he knows that straight after a manic episode I fall into depression. That is when the angry man becomes a dangerous man. HE BECOMES MY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. He will tell me to kill myself. And a whole lot of other things inbetween. I will argue with him for a few days. But dangerous man usually wins when I am in deep depression. There's only so long you can keep listening to angry man telling you you are worthless and you think fine I'm done. You win. I'll show you. He's pretty scary. I only hear him when I'm way up in the clouds or severly depressed. Angry man never visits at all when I am stable. He's scary when I am manic. But he's dangerous when I am depressed. What is the worse of the two evils? I am not sure? I am glad he doesn't visit that often. I don't like him at all.
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