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Originally Posted by kaliope
its called.......got parts? an insiders guide to managing life sucessfully with DID(new horizon in therapy)
just thinking about what i do i discovered a new part that has never come out before because she has been always out. we have been sharing all my life. she came out to handle my shattered life when i started school and plays the happy functional life is a breeze person. she is the one that makes me seem i am the bright intelligent person i am today. no wonder i always felt like a fraud, like there was two mes, the inside me and the outside me.
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You are not a fraud. These parts are aspects of who we are. A real part of you is that happy bright intelligent person. What makes parts standout as good or bad is their singularity. They are one aspect of us, where people without DID have a blended personality, so they are not extreme in either direction. So for me when I am angry and want to injure someone, that is a real part of me. It is born of pain and trauma and see only one way of dealing with something. I have other parts that will talk to the angry part and explain how we don't want to be locked up for his acting out. And that his acting in some situations is extreme and single minded. As long as we don't go past the point he usually will slow down and try to work with us. But if he and we were integrated his reaction wouldn't be singular thought. We would have a blended of emotion, a blended of right and wrong that would balance our behavior automatically. So the angry part of me is a real part of me, the child like part of me is a real part of who I am. We are all intelligent and that seems to be the greatest link to all my parts. It is the one thing we all agree on. Sometimes I have felt envy. I was shocked at first. I didn't know that emotion existed. but it does. Since starting therapy I have learned that most of my emotions are compartmentalized separate from my memories. I also realize that we are all here to help but that as we go forward we need to take an objective look at behavior that is good for all and behavior that excludes others than work on a unified approach to living. I ask myself what I want. I want peace of mind, compassion, love, strength, for all of us. Maybe we will integrate and maybe not. But I think if we can all agree on where we want to to we will find what we are all looking for. Just remember you are bright and intelligent and that other parts, even if you may not like what they say and do, are part of you. Embrace them all get to know them all, set limits that all can agree to and move forward. The fact that you have found this new part and that this new part may communicate with some or all parts is good, and healthy.