At the end of the day, it is YOUR life to live.

Do you love her?

Do you feel safe with her?

Are you addicted to her or the roller coaster of emotions that she brings to the relationship?

".....I have become a person i do not want to be......"

Who would you be if she was not in your life? Would you still be a "monster"?

She may be addicted to drama, and the energy that comes from conflict. When she needs her fix, she pushes your buttons.

When you attempt to leave (thus taking away her connection) she pressures you into staying.

Does the thought of a future with her excite you or exhaust you?