Its cost me big time because l have lost several people I really wanted in my life (women mostly). I feel like a ten year old and I am way beyond that – waaaaayyyyy beyond that. Most people go through relationships and learn how deal with other people (well this is not always the case – my parents didn’t really deal with each other for example). It takes practice which I sorely lack (I know what you’re saying go out and get some – oh lord if it was only that easy I would be king!). Inexperience makes me move at glacial speed with people – I have learned that this is deadly with women they won’t wait for you to grow up.. All I know that when they move away I cry like a kid – if the shoe fits. What’s a curse is that I have enough insight to see this shortcoming but not the guts to move. I don’t know when to be aggressive (not creepy) and when to give space. I can’t measure these accurately and its gonna kill me or at least keep me at a distance until I’m in a wheelchair drooling on myself. So how do I get the tools I need before its too late – I don’t know because I’m so far behind. Pass the pills please – these confessionals are hard.