I've been painfully honest with my therapist. I have baker acted (in/voluntarily committed or sectioned myself). I almost got baker acted last week due to me not seeing the seriousness of my actions. I still do not. It's still kinda a joke to me.

Turns out before last week I was flagged for review to see if they have the resources to handle my case (and my families case). If they do not what I'm (and my family) is out therapists and pdocs? we're turned over to DCF? I'm baker acted until stable? stable is a relative for me. I don't think I've ever seen stable but they've over reacted to my relatively mild swings and WHY is the rest of my family involved.

How is someone to severe for service? It's like they finally read my past record and was like she's to much of a liability. I already went from 2 drugs to 6. I'm taking an AP ( huge for me ) . I asked T which records they will review (because my former record said my thoughts and that I had have no intent to act on those thoughts. My former record makes me look BAD) He's not sure and says he'll try to make my case but it doesn't look good. I asked him if I shouldn't be as honest with him and he said he can't help me if I'm not as honest with him.

Can they seriously drop me and my family? Is severe mental illness enough to open a DCF case? to take my kid away? I've never touched a hair on my kids head! I doubt there's emotional abuse or neglect and not sexual abuse.

Should I stop being as honest? I'm getting more honest as time goes on. I know my T thinks it's only a matter of time before I accidentally die by my own hand and he'll loses his licence. He wants me on multiple AP's. I want less meds. What am I suppose to do if they drop me (and my family)? I understand in someways I'm better (not as intense thoughts) but some ways I'm wore (driven to act on the thoughts.)

I'm currently scared of everything except my husband, loosing English , scattered, and withdrawn. This is REALLY stressful. I have to wait until Wed. to find out what is happening to me. Please respond... I'm about to cry.