Been together 7 years married 6. My husband is 31 i am 24. We seperated almost a year due to untreated mental issues and infidelity. He was diagnosed bipolar and medicated now. Finally living together again I was excited to spice things up as that was his excuse for cheating. Now he claims his meds and our kids distract him from wanting sex. We've had sex maybe 8 times in 3 months and never intimate, quick, no kissing or eye contact. I found on his phone search history for all kinds of sexy teen, hot teen babe, most beautiful teens 2014, panty hose fetish teen miniskirt etc. This crushed me. He claims to have no sex drive but goes and looks at that crap. I am not unattractive. 5'11 135 lbs DD boobs- but his choices have made me feel worthless. He says he's been battling these demons his whole life and it had nothing to do with me but how am I supposed to feel when I am right here willing to fulfill his fantasies and he doesn't even express a desire to be with me. Can you please help me make sense of this? I don't have much heart left to break. The infidelity nearly killed me. Please help.