My mom's death anniversary is coming up in April, I am having such a hard time because she mentally and physically abused me for 26 years. She is the cause of my PTSD and many of my other medical issues. I have been having nightmares almost every night. It's me now watching her beat the younger me and I can't stop her or interfere. I just have to watch her until she's done. I hate having to relive it over and over. HELP...