It's interesting that you called it "treatment resilient," which I find to be a really cool and exciting term. If depression or some other mental state isn't going to get better no matter what, it's called "treatment resistant."

Treatment resilience would be the total opposite of that. In other words, that was a fantastic Freudian slip that sounds like you're ready to say it doesn't matter what your T thinks, you know yourself better and you're able to be resilient even in the face of statements from your T you don't agree with.

I hope you'll tell T at your next appointment that you feel far more resilient than her assessment and that you have had times of feeling better and that you're not averse to medication, just averse to the difficult adverse reactions of tapering and starting a new med.

At my last doctor's appointment I had a discussion about a physical condition I have that's officially been labeled treatment resistant. I go along okay for a while and then it knocks me flat again even though I'm doing all the treatment things I'm supposed to do. I asked about changing meds. He was against it, said I was doing okay and was "resilient" in the face of a treatment resistant disorder. A serious one. I'm still doing okay.

That's probably why I loved your term. I'm going to start calling myself "treatment resilient," which to me is going to mean that every time I get knocked down either by the disorder or meds side effects I'm going to pick myself up (as soon as possible) dust myself off and keep going. And I'm going to ask my doc to help me do that.

You know yourself (we all know ourselves) better than anyone else can know us. I hope you share some of that info about your resilience with your T. It sounds like you've worked hard to stay resilient. I wish you the best.