So, I'm going to keep my T appointment. I'm not sure what's causing me more anxiety at this moment though: having to face T and possibly find out she thinks I'm hopeless and worthless, or facing mom tomorrow morning when I stand by my decision to go to T instead of court. We have not discussed it since yesterday, but I'm wondering if she thinks I will change my mind last minute to go with her... I just can't.
Of course, now I don't remember what it was that I had wanted to tell T after last week. My mind and body are totally consimed with anxiety over all of this (plus some other things).