I've just decided I'm not bipolar! I'm tired of all the meds, I'm tired of taking this one and trying that one and feeling happy and feeling sad! I Don't think I've ever once felt "normal" if there is such a thing... I'm tired of looking for "normal".

I don't want to go to my pdoc 3/11 and say I'm not taking the lithium you prescribed bc it made me feel like I was sucking on metal constantly, kept me in the bathroom most of the day, made me a zombie... I don't want him to be let down. I don't want him to say "ok, well then let's try this!" I'm sick of trying THIS and that!

I'm tired of spending my days running around in circles and getting nothing accomplished. Like this post, just babbling about nothing... But it's 4:37am... And I have been up for an hour And I am not bipolar!

Thanks for the rant!