Fear, it is something that based our life from the beginning. But I feel I really don't understand the fear carried as that too was hidden from me at a certain point. And I feel that is where I am right now, surrounded by a forest full of towering fear. I feel myself encircled and lost somewhere within this place that goes forever.

It is cold here and I cannot seem to get warm. If I had felt this fear back then I would not be here today. Because in our fear strength had to step up and be strong. Fear was present but had to be pushed away far enough that it didn't allow them to know just how fearful we were.

If fear had been allowed to overtake, fear alone would have ended us. Fear has just taken another meaning to me-----one that I don't understand but that I feel more than I ever have before. And I know that I am alone for no one can understand or walk here. It is deep and dark and cold here. I walk this alone.

I feel alienated and as though everything is a million miles away. I am reaching but no one can see as the darkness from the forest hides me away.

The deeper I go the louder fear seems to get.

Where a child never should have been.

I never should have had to be.

And I am scared.