You matter. I haven't seen your posts before but it looks like you help people out here. Keep reaching out. Giving you a hug. Fight this feeling. Talk back to it. You matter and you exist. Keep turning your negative vision to something you are looking forward to. Can be small. Or say or write something you are grateful for. It's hard to do but keep trying. Or just let the feeling ride out. This too shall pass. You matter!!!!