I'm incredibly lonely, but I don't want to make any more friends. (If you think that's a really unhealthy thing to say and I should just go talk to someone, read the rest of the page. If not, you can skip to the bottom paragraph.)
For one thing, I'm not sure it would help. I have one or two very close friends right now, but I still feel lonely while spending time with them. I suppose an intimate relationship might help at some point, but I seriously doubt I'm ready for one. I have a LOT of crazy going on inside my head... or, better said, I'm not crazy, but there are a lot of things it's significantly more difficult for me to do, and connecting with others is one of them. Which brings me to my second point; I don't think I have it in me to deal with a lot of human interaction right now. I'm only nineteen, and I'm figuring out a lot of things (just got a second job, saving up for school, trying to move out... eventually...) and so even as it is I'm having to be real careful to exercise and use my coping skills and keep up on my mental and physical health to avoid another episode.
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is I'd rather not use time/energy I don't have to find friends who won't help, but I do need to handle the loneliness. I'm hoping someone has some tips, because most of the stuff I've found so far is about socialization, and that's really not the issue. Thanks