Hello Ashyash90, welcome to Psych Central.
We can't diagnose on here but it does sound like you are down on yourself. It is a good move to be realizing these things though as often anxiety and depression can go together. You might like to try these online tests to get a better idea of what is going on with you >>>>
The Sanity Score - Test Your Mental Wellness and
Psychological Tests and Quizzes You can print out the results and show them to your own doctor.
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