i once had a boyfriend when i was 18 who kept telling me he never wanted kids because his mom was abusive and he didn't want to pass her genes on as she also killed herself. I didn't mind about the no kids part, but he could not seem to enjoy himself, was high all the time, did play some sports, drank alot and was a mess. needless to say we broke up. i love him alot still. think about him alot too.I am married for 20 years now to someone else. This person had to learn how to be a kid all over again as he left me because he said he never had a childhood and wanted to be a kid for the rest of his life and you know what i was happy for him because he needed it. To this day i don't know where he is but i hope he's playing hopschotch or climbing a tree!!!!I wish you luck and enjoy you life-you deserve it!!!