I've had many friends in my life but it seems to me that I always get back stabbed. What I mean, is that people pretend to be my friend cause they either feel sorry for me or they just want me to be their friend cause their shallow and just think of me as a number.

Anyways I just found out that one of my friends(who I thought actually liked me) is trying to ignore me away lol Cause they have been ignoring me for about couple months now and I can't help but think that maybe I made them run away. Cause I admitted to them that I had a depression illness and such-now I didn't mean to admit it, it just sort of slipped out. Anyways, I can't help but feel it was my fault.

I admit, that I'm a fruit now and then lol but am I really that strange that I make my own friend(supposedly) run for the hills? Or make them feel embarrassed to know me? Oh well, one friendship lost won't change anything-my life is already boring lol