i need to post this....like right now...immeditaly....however i dont know where this belongs..having a panick attack thingy because i cant find a moderator or anything to guide me....so i will post it here...well...because i have no idea where this would go...so please no one hate me....just move my post if you feel it is necessary and forgive me....im just kinda panicky and need to be told what to do otherwise i will mess up....see i already posted like a paragraph....on nothing but an apology...alrightty....trigger perhaps...its about forgetting.....

Ive come to the realization that I DONT REMEMBER.....by boyfriend was talking to me and we had a discussion on history stuff....i couldnt answer basic simple things...and then i started thinking...where was i for the past...oh 16 years....i dont remember alot...i remember bits...like a teacher here.....or that i had a pink snow white lunch box....but thats it...then i started thinking...well what DO i remember....i remember this week...and thats all....its like i remember a week before...and then its thrown away...never stored...nothing...i am either really really stupid.....or somethings just wrong with me...i thought Columbus thought the earth was flat....i mean come on...i said one of his ships was called the magenta.....i thought there was a continent on the very northern tip of the world...you like like antartica....but north....im losing my mind....i remember very little....why am i like this..what is going on..why am i so dumb....i dont remember being taught....my boyfriend said that its cuz i never paid attention....but i should remember something...i dont even know how to do my times tables ....i feel like a clean slate...and even though youd probably say...well thats what i should want....its not.....its scary....theres nothing...nothing...i feel like im supposed to be in kindergarden......i mean....where was I in 5th grade? Or 3rd grade? What did i learn??? This scares me....i can remember some things....but not alot.....i always thought...well im just ditzy....or i just have a bad memory....but this is creating real problems....i tried to take a math portion in a college test for placement....i got a 33% ...and it was basic alegbra...didnt even need a calculator......this has me feeling like im running in circles. im so scared....why dont i remember...what do i do.....