thanks everyone.
I still feel something about the lack of session, but I can't identify what it is... I just want to cry. I'm not really sure what's behind it. I had wanted to talk to my wife about it, but we didn't talk as much today. And my mom was kinda frustrated that I didn't go with her and then had my appointment cancelled anyway (she's still thinking I should have rescheduled for her)...
I wish I could figure out what this feeling is, but it's just... meh. m.e.h. meh... I dunno...