Others on my intro thread suggested I pay a visit to this forum.

I was just diagnosed with bipolar two weeks ago during a 9 day hospitalization. (one of four hospitalizations)

I'm on depacote and seraquel. (pardon my spelling)

The docs avoided using lithium and soon will take out seraquel due to my type one diabetes. (these meds run primarily through the kidney...which is bad for a diabetic in the long run)

I thought I was doing pretty good this past week but today the depression hit hard along with thoughts revolving around substance use, self harm, and death. (and no I gave in to none of these impulses) I just sort of over ate instead.

Can anyone her offer some perspective to me on how the future will go and the things I will have to do to help myself?

Right now I feel rather hopeless and trapped, but my perspective is one dimensional at the moment. Not sure what to see or how to see more.