I can totally relate to that. Yes, there's definitely anger at myself...

did you get to reschedule with her for later in the week? Or at least get to touch base with her at some point this week?

My T said she would call tomorrow, but I am thinking that is unlikley.

I'm angry at myself for needing her, and I'm angry at myself for being sad that I couldn't see her today. I know stuff happens in life, and I know what I would want from others if stuff was going on for me, so why can't I give that to T? What maks me any more deserving than her of empathy and understanding? Nothing. So why do I still feel this way? Maybe it's all the other stupid little rejections I've had these last few weeks? One, or even a few at a time would be nothing, but all of them together just seem to underscore how awful I am a a person. And I'm really incredibly socially awkward. I try SO HARD to say the right thing and do the right thing, but i end up sounding or looking like an ***... I never seem to learn.