I'm still trying to figure this site out. Hopefully I hit the right button.

I listen to a lot of music. Music says what I cannot. The louder the better as well. He didn't let me listen to my music how I wanted to. If I tried to play it on the speakers I was told I'm being weird and this isn't normal for me. Thing is it was normal, I just didn't do it often because he would turn it down or off which annoyed me. He wasn't being nasty, just isn't into music. So to avoid the weirdness I simply stopped listening to it when he was around. And he was always around me like we were attached to the hips.

I have thought about counseling however im finding it hard to pick up the phone and schedule a appointment. Part of me worries about if it would have a effect on my career if found out. Then there is other fears I have. Maybe all unfounded.

As for down playing, your probably right. I just don't feel I should complain when I know others had it worse. I know some would look at me and think, pfft. ''Weak.'' ''I wish I had it that easy.'' i don't know. Maybe it just makes it easier to deal with?

Thank you both for your replies.