(((bounceback))) I have had 16 anniversaries of my mom's death. It seems that I do dread her death anniversary as I don't like to think about it, either. Time does help as the first year was the worst but each year it gets a little easier. I distract myself and go to a friend's house. Sometimes it helps to be with someone else on these anniversaries. Do something to distract yourself and try to be with family or friends.
Blessings.