Maybe it is way off. I don't know. Honestly I've been exposed to the sane thing so much I don't know what to do.

I like women I trust. I have female friends, I do trust and love them as friends for who they are. They've helped me cope with this and I thank them so much right now. I don't think this way towards every female. Just the few I get these negative generalized interactions with.

My number one thing I need is intimacy. I never had it much at all. I'm deprived from it for many years whether if its dating or not. Closeness isn't my thing because people aren't that close with me that's easy to deal with. Either my relationships are all superficial acquaintances or over a computer or technology.