it sounds like you have a lot of good coping skills. what you are missling is what you desire. someone to listen to you. a place to vent without judgement. ideally this would be a partner, the people you share your life with. you are not wrong in wanting that. you are entitled to your feelings and she could use a crash course in reflective listening. you need to get that stuff out. it is bad for your heart mind and soul. take care.