You promise you wont get mad if i call transference on that last paragraph? There is only one person imo we have that bond with, thats parent-child. Everyone else is replaceable. Transferable. I just hear you saying, how or why should i go on if even my mother didnt love me - even tho you try to grab the responsibility for loving, im not buying it, sorry. Well, my personal rationale is, she is dumb. I am smarter. And now that i am here, i should make the best of it.