It sounds like you have a lot to process and I'd spend some time doing just that.

When I filed a complaint, I did it only when it was clear to me that I no longer had any feelings of love, attachment, appreciation etc. for my ex-T. I decided that as long as those feelings were still lingering I wouldn't file. I just got the summary of my records from him because then I could take my time to decide when I want to file and whether I want to do that at all. I filed six months after the relationship ended. I couldn't write up the whole thing at once because the memories were too triggering and it was too painful to put them in writing. I could only do one paragraph at a time. But it was just pain from the wound caused by the betrayal and the exploitation. There were no good feelings about him left so I was not conflicted when I was writing about it and when I sent it out. I felt relief when I did it. No guilt whatsoever.

Two months later I was interviewed by the investigator. I was very calm during the interview. I answered all the questions in a neutral, matter-of-fact way. Eight months later the board issued the accusation and another eight months later he and the board reached the settlement by which his license was put on probation for five years with a bunch of requirements he had to fulfill to clear his record. Both documents are on the board's website and are accessible to anyone who wants to check his disciplinary records.

This was definitely an empowering thing for me to do and facilitated my healing process a lot.