I googled OCPD and I have many of those traits but I don't think I meet the criteria for the disorder. My dad probably does and since I favor him in many ways, I have picked up some of his behaviors.
One thing that is important to me is to be in control of my environment, because I have found that when others were in control, I was abused, manipulated and taken advantage of. As long as I am in control of myself and my environment, everything is okay.
I don't have a problem with true authority figures such as employers or law enforcement as long as those authority figures do me no harm. I do have a problem with self-proclaimed authority figures, such as pastors, religious gurus, relatives, boyfriends, friends or acquaintances who try to exert control over my personal life. Being controlled by others is my worst fear and I have taken extreme measures in the past year of my life to avoid that. I see now how my OCPD traits play a part in this.
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Dx: GAD, PTSD, Personality Disorder NOS, Alcoholism
Rx: Celexa, Trazodone, Neurontin
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