Thanks, but the problem with starting small is that I'd have to go through an elaborate washing ritual (including a shower) after each day of cleaning, and I can't handle that mentally or physically. I'm trying to lose weight, but I'm in really poor shape physically.

Yes, I'm seeing a psychiatrist, whom I've been seeing for several years now. All he does (all ANY of the pdocs I've ever seen did) is prescribe me pills. The meds help, but they steal away my sex drive and make me numb.

The cats are another problem and my own fault. I love them, make no mistake, but I never should have started feeding them. Plus, we shouldn't have taken the 2nd one in. I gave into my heart on that one. The first was because she got injured and needed care. But she could have been returned to the outdoors when she recovered.. Still, feeding all of them is taking a toll on my OCD and my finances.

I have asked my pdoc for advice, but he offers none. Just meds. I am not opposed to meds in general, but they don't help that much, and the side effects take so much from me.

Thank you for your help. I'm not trying to poo-poo your ideas. It's just a really difficult situation. I NEED to change my bedsheets, but can't because I have nowhere to move the stuff on my bed. I have no places in my home where I can breathe, relax and be creative.

And today I turn 47. If only I could be young and beautiful forever, and healthy in all ways. I hate getting older.