Can I ask you how long you have been together?

Are you in Therapy? If your not you should find one. Your dealing with a lot of issues. I can feel your pain, Its not good to be where you at emotionally right now.

As for the BF.. I don't care if he drunk or not, he should be caring , loving and respect you... He should have been angry that his co-workers would do such a thing and stand up and defend you. No excuse for him to act so foolish and disrespectful.

I am going to guess you don't have a healthy relationship with him, you have alot of self worth issues that you need to learn how to change, You deserve someone that will love you and support you with respect.

As for the hand that was dealt to you? Well sometimes we got a good hand and sometimes a Shyt one.. But you are in control of that.. Think like a poker game....you can toss out some useless cards and get new ones... Maybe your bf is a card that needs tossed out..

I really hope your able to seek help from a Therapist, You will learn ways to cope and become a much stronger person and find happiness and be loved and supported