Morning roll call!!

Not been around much... been a mixture of busy, taking naps & just generally a bit disconnected with the whole forum malarkey but I am doing quite well.

I'm quite happy with being on risperidone now. Even if I am still napping a lot, I feel more human than I did on abilify.

In other news, I feel like a failure. I've just done week 4 of the stop smoking program. I was doing so well but I have no idea what happened, I've just spiralled the last couple of days working my way back up to 20 cigarettes a day. They expect you to be completely reliant on NRT by week 4 so I have no idea what they'll say. I'm supposed to have an appointment today but since they are quite casual (turn up any time on a certain day), I'm just going to skip it & go in tomorrow when hopefully I'll have something positive to say. I feel like such a failure though, I want nothing more than to be rid of cigarettes but I can't stop myself even when I've got NRT products to help. I can't help but feel my illness & medication is to blame for that yet I can't really explain that to them, at least not without feeling rather uncomfortable.