I never connected these thoughts to BPD ie feeling ugly and stupid...I just thought that was me!! I do exactly what you have written and it is so exhausting. It has got to a point where I now isolate myself...sometimes my husband will talk me into doing things but mostly, I enjoy staying at home with my husband and dogs. Even walking down the street to the shop I fear ppl walking past are going to spit at me or attack me for looking so ugly. I am assured I look normal but when I look at myself I see abnormal and ugly. It is so sad

Thanks for sharing!