I don't want to sound boring, but how are your sugars doing? I'm wondering if they are swinging around a bit, and making you feel worse?
I'm not sure how to address the internal self worth thing. I know that for me, I have aspects of myself that I hold in high regard - mostly around creativity - simply because. They just feel like bits of me, in the same way as my eye colour, or whatever. There has never been a time that they have not been part of who I am. But they have always been reinforced by family and teachers and friends and colleagues - virtually since I was born. I can't remember a time when I wasn't "IG, who is fantastic at x and y". As I think I mentioned on your other thread, I think you have to keep accepting that reassurance from others, seeing the reflection of your good traits, until it sinks in properly. I sure as hell have to do this with other big bits of myself.
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